申请季的选择

申请季的选择

申请季结束了,彻底结束了,终于终于可以松一口气了。

短短的两个月,却充满着压力、痛苦与崩溃边缘的徘徊。也算是成人之际,社会现实给我上的一课吧。我认识到了真正的冷暖,好坏与纠葛。这远是超乎我所想象的。

很庆幸,总算有了好结果,春光明媚。杜克大学是我的最终选择,也是我最平静的选择。难忘的恰不是这次抉择,而是第一次给予我信心与肯定的那个早晨。

准时起床,洗漱完毕,穿好衣服,双手合十,像极了一个虔诚的信徒,却不知道信的是什么。或许是自己,又是家人。打开伯克利的portal,平静地登陆,Congratulations!赫然写在屏幕的中间,我怔住了。右手食指颤抖着滑了几下鼠标滚轮。确定了,是真的,我被伯克利录取了!没有人能想象我有多么激动,甚至一分钟前的自己也无法想象。我开始呐喊,尖叫,朝着屏幕,朝着窗外,朝着接通电话的母亲那端。我要让看不起我的人,失信于我的人,放弃于我的人看一看,无论如何,我做到了。我不管,我做到了。我想打破每一扇窗户,我想更大声地喊出来,我想让所有的所有都听见。我就是这么挣脱理性。

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Application Season

Application Season

Hey there, long time no see.

I’ve skipped the review of robotics competition in December, 2020 review and more things that have stayed on my pocket notes for months. I apoligized but I really couldn’t allocate some time to do so because of the anxious, intense, formiddable(there’s more) application season.

But I learned a lot.


I have to say I’ve never been so tierd at any moment in my life. I thought it would be a regular semester for me, just with some extra works on application essays and other stuff. However, I definitely underestimated the workload and energy of it.

Though I have applied for Stanford Summer Institute in the beginning of 2020 all by myself, with 8+ application essays, this time I still felt like a completely new challenge for me.

When writting essays, I want to eagerly find some real points that I could match with the school I applied for, which costs time, a lot of time… My conselor told me, “just search on its website, found some courses and research areas, and then everything done.” I don’t think so, however. I believe the more time I invested in truly researched the school, the more possibility I will be accepted. I cannot accept myself submitting essays without staying overnight for several times.


My mood

I always recognized myself as a positive and optimistic person, but not this time. My mood was changed dramatically within a day-time, which influenced me from each and every aspects of my life including school works, coding and especially writing applicaiton essays. Self-doubts are common these days.

And to be honest, I encountered some unpleasant things. 3 times of failure in taking TOEFL really distroyed my mind. I nearly gave up. And until now I still don’t have a great score. I just hope all my efforts and pain experienced in writing essays could compensate the negative effects it brings to me.

Seeing my classmates received their dream offers, I am really happy for them. Also I am really upset for myself. Their futures journeys are somehow well-prepared while I am still seeking for opportunities and waiting.


There are still so many things I would like to share on my blog, yet 3 school essays are still needed to be done. /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~

I just hope universities and colleges I applied for could really understand my experience and ambitions through my application.

Good luck to myself and all fellow applicants!

History Final Exam

History Final Exam

2020年,发生了很多事件。我一直在思考,真的是2020年的大事件比2019,2018多出很多吗?因为今年所发生的无论是国内、国际、政治、经济、文化、历史遗留等等重大事件,从我个人的观感来说,比往年都要多出一个数量级的感觉。究竟是疫情导致了这些事件,还是因为人们在疫情期间更加有精力和时间去挖掘信息,我一直在思考。历史告诉我们,事情具有两面性,不具有绝对性。一部分事件,是因为疫情爆发给人们心理上带来的压力所导致的;而另一部分事件,则是必然会发生的,无论是否有疫情的刺激。

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Discover Berkeley

Discover Berkeley

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The second one in my Discover College Series…

Berkeley, the college that is close to my dream in California.

Note: The following are some quotes and main point I referred from official website of Berkeley.

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Explore Stanford Website

Explore Stanford Website

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I think it’s time for me to begin my application. These days my mother is trying to find professional counselors who can be helpful in the course of my application. Also, I know the most important thing is myself. I need to be prepared first and make choice finally. So that’s the reason why I am doing this, looking for useful information from several college websites. Here is the first one, that many peers including I admire the most: Stanford University.

I will mark and reorganize some points mentioned in the intro which I think is useful.

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