Application Season

Hey there, long time no see.

I’ve skipped the review of robotics competition in December, 2020 review and more things that have stayed on my pocket notes for months. I apoligized but I really couldn’t allocate some time to do so because of the anxious, intense, formiddable(there’s more) application season.

But I learned a lot.

I have to say I’ve never been so tierd at any moment in my life. I thought it would be a regular semester for me, just with some extra works on application essays and other stuff. However, I definitely underestimated the workload and energy of it.

Though I have applied for Stanford Summer Institute in the beginning of 2020 all by myself, with 8+ application essays, this time I still felt like a completely new challenge for me.

When writting essays, I want to eagerly find some real points that I could match with the school I applied for, which costs time, a lot of time… My conselor told me, “just search on its website, found some courses and research areas, and then everything done.” I don’t think so, however. I believe the more time I invested in truly researched the school, the more possibility I will be accepted. I cannot accept myself submitting essays without staying overnight for several times.

My mood

I always recognized myself as a positive and optimistic person, but not this time. My mood was changed dramatically within a day-time, which influenced me from each and every aspects of my life including school works, coding and especially writing applicaiton essays. Self-doubts are common these days.

And to be honest, I encountered some unpleasant things. 3 times of failure in taking TOEFL really distroyed my mind. I nearly gave up. And until now I still don’t have a great score. I just hope all my efforts and pain experienced in writing essays could compensate the negative effects it brings to me.

Seeing my classmates received their dream offers, I am really happy for them. Also I am really upset for myself. Their futures journeys are somehow well-prepared while I am still seeking for opportunities and waiting.

There are still so many things I would like to share on my blog, yet 3 school essays are still needed to be done. /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~

I just hope universities and colleges I applied for could really understand my experience and ambitions through my application.

Good luck to myself and all fellow applicants!

A short trip to Beijing

This month is really a busy month. Writing essays for application, preparing for TOEFL, learning school courses and participating in Yau Science Awards really stressed me a lot. I feel like I have never been busy as much as now. It’s not only about my academic works, since I need to consider many other things that are simple but costs tons of time. All things combined,it’s a challenge for me and I need to and have to admit it.

Coming to Beijing

After a week long prepare with my mentor, reviewing my paper and debugging my neural network model, I came to Beijing for semifinal of Yau Science Award(Computer) yesterday. Though I’ve been to many places without my parents, I was accompanied with teachers or schoolmates. This trip is truly the first trip that I went alone. To be honest, I even was a little nervous at first.

Everything went OK the first day. Arriving by bullet train, I took 3 subway lines to go to my hotel next to Tsinghua University. The hotel is fine but I booked a room without windows for cheaper price. However, it was really a awful experience that I felt unwell staying at the room. (I swear I would never book a room without room again) So I decided to go to the university for checking the route in advance just in case that I might get lost the next day.

To be honest, I don’t have a good impression of Beijing based on previous visits. No exception, it’s the same this time. I don’t know if it’s a prejudice or something else. Anyway, I don’t like this city. It imposes bad feeling to me.

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在这之前你需要准备好

• 一台安装了宝塔面板的linux centOS服务器
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TENET

Tenet is an amazing movie with wonderful stories and deep meanings. I am a person never watching a single movie twice, but I did watch Tenet twice. Each time it brought me surprises. It’s hard to understand, and I haven’t fully understood yet. However, when watching Tenet, it feels like listening to a piece of music with English lyrics. I may not be able to get the meaning of the lyrics the singer sings, but it doesn’t affect my mood and enjoyment. The same goes for this movie. I can’t figure out how time flows, but I do feel excitement and nervousness following the step of the characters.

Destiny

Not everyone believe in destiny. In this movie, in some way, proves the destiny of each human beings. We all have our faith and mission. Neil probably knew he would die of helping the younger protagonist, he insists to do it without hesitancy.

Physical Exercises

On August 28th, I went to a military training base in rural area of my city with my fellow students. Originally, I thought it would be a tough time based on all my past formidable experience with such training. However, I didn’t take it anymore during my time in both middle and high school. I took a trip and had computer science classes instead. A fun fact is that I became the whitest among my class after they coming back from training.

Apart from worry, excitement also haunted around me because it’s been a long time to have a training. The result turned out it didn’t let me down and I really learned a lot from this fantastic experience.

Trying my best to be the team leader is always my style, especially participating in a short-time camp. I frimly deem it’s a great opportunity to promote and improve myself. Then I became the leader of group 6 without any hesitate. I deeply know that I am lack of leadership and most important, the decisive personality. This time I failed again on improving that. Everytime I become a leader in a program, unfortunately, I never felt improvement in this field.

Besides that, I believe I did great a great job. Organizing the team, encourging everyone doing high-altitude program and cimmitting myself to everything I can.

Before

Tomorrow I’ll have a TOEFL test to take and I chose to hang out with my friend and see a movie. All because I was too anxious about the test. I am trying my best to relax and smooth my nerve.

Supposedly we were going to see Harry Porter since I never watched the series before and it’s a good chance for me to take a look. However, we decided to see the Eight Hundred after all.

Before watching, I have no knowledge about the movie. I was sitting in the second row in the theater which is my first time to sit so close that I need to raise my head to see the full screen.